The night rantings

End of the first week of school. In a terribly low mood which I have attributed to a few factors: 1) Cold weather- I am a warm climate individual and cold climate always makes me sleepy and sluggish. Solution: I pumped up the air condition in my apartment to escape from reality. But waking up is still a tough thing to do.

2) Departure of the gfrd- Gettling over homesickness and getting used to being alone is going to be difficult.
Solution: Occupy myself by sleeping and studying more.

3) Illogical increasing anxiety about the future.
Solution: Relax and enjoy being a student instead of being worried abt how to get back being a corporate slave again.

4) Feeling that I may have taken on too much. ASEAN club, running for SRC, BCG competition and voluntary counsellor at my apartment.
Solution: Be positive about my active social life instead of bitching about it.

There are more but I think thats enough ranting for now. Current or future MBA students may identify with this. But I still stand by that the experience is totally worth it.

First day of school of the 2nd term. The weather is colder and the mood more...... sombre seem tobe an appropriate word. Maybe it is me seeing the world off the adrenaline and rosey specs of starting a new phase of life, maybe it is the realisation that its work and more work. Its not mundane but it is going to be a challenge. Number one question on the mind is the makeup of all my syndicates.

This semester is going to be a short but wild ride. The upcoming SRC elections which I figured I most probably wont win and the BCG case competition are going to be highlights among the vague possibility of involving in more of the debating clubs activities.

Sometimes my thought flutter around home, my ex job- familiarity and security. All given up temporarily/permanently for an MBA, in the hopes of striking the jackpot in life.

Refocus, I need to refocus. Its going to be difficult as hell but I do hope the end result is worth it, and that an MBA does not mean Me Being Anal. :o

It has been a great 10 days of holidays but I am starting to feel a deep loss at the moment by the departure of my girlfriend after her holiday in aussie ended. It sucks definitely when you have to get used to being alone again, not to mention doing the household chores and watching tv alone that one have to do. And theres only so many things one can do alone.

Received my results and they were totally in line with my forecast. They are pretty alright but like my previous posts you always feel you could have done better. In an MBA you seek not only to be good, because everyone is, but to be better if not the best. The healthy competition among the students brings out the best in you. You learn that to perform well, you need to work together. And by networking and sharing your resources can you perform beyind your personal best if you tackle something alone. So if you want to hog information and not share, you probably have to carry a tremendous burden and most probably burn out and perform not as well.

Now the question is how to collect my spirits and prepare for the next semester. Its going to be difficult after the initial excitment of leaving the job and country to become a student again. Game on.

First round of exams is finally over and I am in the midst of my 2 weeks break. Exams have been good as good as I would liked it to be. ITs part of the human nature of always being not satisfied, 20/20 hindsight.

Went to Sydney for a couple of days and I have to say I did not have a good feel of the city. Thank goodness I pass on AGSM. The parking was exhorbitant, and everything else too. The streets were cramped and it was just plain boring. Even the casino looked kind of sleazy. Nuff said about the most expensive city in Australia.

Back in MElbourne, Idid a breakbacking 7 hour or was it 8 hour drive down great ocean road. The view was spectacular but the point of driving that far for a half an hour view was lost on me. Next time I am taking a bus. And bloody hell I got pulled over by a cop for doing 131km on a 100km road and slapped with a $205 fine. Argh.

Stuff to do, will blog more later. Back to enjoying my holidays. :)